The Emmy-winning actress, 53, appeared on the Elizabeth Vargas podcast on Tuesday “At the heart of matter” and called his relationship with drugs “very abusive”.
“Oh, my God, just thinking about that time in my life gives me chills,” Johnston recalls. “The happiest thing in my life is that I don’t use it anymore. I really do, because… there is no greater hell.”
The “Mom” star described how she drank “two bottles of wine a night and 10, 20, 30 pills a day.”
Johnston admitted that his addiction came from not knowing how to handle fame.
“It really wasn’t fun. The job was fun, but everything that came with it was so terrifying to me,” she said. “I didn’t realize until later that I had lived in absolute panic for 10 years… It was just crazy. I didn’t have the ability that I have today to just put on [things] in perspective, and like, ‘Oh, get over that. Just go forward. There are more important things to worry about. I hate to say I was a cliché, but I really was. I mean, I was an actress who couldn’t stand it. I couldn’t stand the fame. “
Johnston said she felt “lonely” and “isolated” and turned to pills for pain relief.
“For a long time, it was like an abusive relationship,” she said. “You’re not totally committed to this guy who beats you up. He happens, you break up, you go a few months without seeing him, then he gets back on his motorcycle and you start dating him again. It was like an on and off relationship. for four years, and she only got really bad after 3rd Rock.… I was able to keep a lid on for a few years, and then we got married, me and my opiates, a few years after 3rd Rock, and that ‘ was a very, very abusive relationship. “
Johnston said she had a moment of “common sense” when she landed in the ER while in London on New Years Eve. “It started my journey to recovery,” he said. she explains.
While Johnston was able to get sober, his sister was not and sadly passed away in August 2020 after suffering from addiction for years.
“It was just a very painful thing for my family. So I connect with the people who communicate with me, relatives of drug addicts and addicts, because I have been both,” she said.